Hello World! Thoughts on Depression, Hope + Possibility
"Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.”
-Bernice Johnson Reagon
As some of you know, these last few months have been particularly trying for me. Though not always easy (or successful), I put a sincere effort into maintaining a positive attitude throughout times like these... a life lesson, I wasn't always aware of. Sadly, there was a time where circumstances like those of late, would have had me sitting & rocking on the edge of a roof not wanting to live.. yet not wanting to die. Looking back.. that event seems so surreal.
“Your work is to discover your work and then with all your heart to give yourself to it.”
Living with Tourette's Syndrome, and Bipolar Disorder, has presented many challenges for me... the hardest of which, is fighting those 'demons' in my head. An internal struggle, that I have accepted will never cease. My best defense is self-awareness, and to achieve that.. I am constantly in the process of self discovery. As you get to know me, you will begin to see just how evident this is within my artwork... a tad ironic, considering my creativity is a blessing and gift that having these disorders provides. Admitting this, believing this, and embracing this .. is also my path to healing, my way to cope.
“The greatest discovery of all time is that a person can change his future by merely changing his attitude.”
In early April, when just about everything in my life seemed so damned bleak to me.. I forced myself to begin a shift in my mental state. Little by little, day by day, literally.. just...
... o n e - s t e p ...
... a t - a - t i m e ...
I found myself waking up... that rebirth of self so many speak of, and we chalk off as silly or absurd...I found myself saying "Hello" to the world and all it's endless possibilities once again...I had found hope, where I least expected it... within myself.
Mixed Media Collage & Painting
One of a Kind 4" x 4" Canvas Panel
By Raleigh, NC Outsider Artist Chrysti
This beautiful piece, was created during that magical time. The adorable, vintage puppy with his hopeful, eager eyes.. looking ahead at what's to come. A cheerful, whimsical world just awaiting him to discover it and if you look carefully, you can see the faint image of a newborn baby behind him, a symbolic image of that rebirth.
Though this is piece is small, it took hours to create .. no detail was left unturned. It has served as a powerful, inspiring reminder to me over these last 2 months, and it's my wish now .. that it do the same for someone else.. so, it's for sale here. You can read a bit more about this small treasure in the listing as well.
“Our real discoveries come from chaos, from going to the place that looks wrong and stupid and foolish.”
“Learning is the discovery that something is possible”
Now go - discover something, anything ...that you didn't believe was possible.